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Do you feel that no one understands your suffering?

To others, they look like a 'wealthy, happy family.' So you've told yourself that the sense of unease and suffocation you feel is something you just have to endure.

But invisible wounds are the ones that corrode the heart most deeply.

We must now begin to speak about the 'hell of the ordinary' that society has overlooked.

This Book as a Solution

Book cover for 'Lotus in the Mud'

This is not someone else's story.
It could be your story.

Non-fiction
'Lotus in the Mud: My Status Screen is Bugged and Won't Show My Medical Records or Photo Albums?! ~Aiming for the Best Ending in this Shitty Real-Life Game~'

This record, written by the protagonist Lotus at the cost of her own soul, will gently scoop up the unspoken emotions deep within your heart and bring them to light.

3 Things This Book Will Bring to Your Heart

  • Liberation from Loneliness

    'You are not alone'—through Lotus's real experiences, these common words will resonate in your chest with unparalleled power. A message from a forerunner who has been through the same pain becomes a warm bond in the darkness.

  • The Power to Know the Truth

    'Why couldn't I ask anyone for help?' 'Why was I treated so horribly?'... The answers to the questions you've been blaming yourself for are here. Understanding the structure of the problem is the first step to freeing yourself from the pain of self-blame.

  • A Guidepost to Recovery

    This is not a story of despair. It is a powerful story of 'recovery,' of overcoming a harrowing past to reclaim control of one's own life. Her journey will become a sure beacon of hope, illuminating your future.

Reader Reviews / Testimonials

This book is not merely a memoir of abuse. It is an extremely important case study showing how trauma distorts a person's cognition, emotions, and interpersonal relationships. The situation the author describes as having 'no medical records or photo albums' accurately expresses the fundamental suffering of gray-zone abuse survivors who 'cannot prove their own past.' Supporters, in particular, should re-experience the psychological reality of victims through this book and question their own methods of support. I want to make this required reading for all counselors, teachers, and medical professionals.

◆ Testimonial: A.Y., Clinical Psychologist

I couldn't stop crying. It was as if my own childhood was written here. The contradiction of being called a 'treasure' while, in reality, being treated as a tool by my mother. The episode with her dog, Beethoven, broke my heart as if it were my own story. But when I finished reading, what remained in my heart was not despair, but a strangely quiet strength. Maybe I, too, can live my life over again like Lotus. This book, which made me feel that way, is a lifelong charm for me.

◆ Reader's Voice: B.S., 30s Female

A Message from the Author

This book is a record based on Lotus's actual experiences. I took up my pen wanting to convey the fact that there are many children in this society suffering not only from life-threatening abuse but also from emotional wounds that are often overlooked by those around them.

I hope this story reaches the heart of someone else who is screaming silently and becomes a message that 'you are not alone.'

And above all, I want to convey that those who have survived these harsh experiences can, even if not understood by those around them, surely reclaim control of their own lives and grasp happiness. If this book can be a small catalyst for that, there would be no greater joy.

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